My history (part 4)

I hope I have lost to many of you in this jumping around thing I have been doing with my blogs but either way its pretty much laid out so go back through and re-read what you have missed. With that being said after two weeks of intense therapy and visiting a baby girl in the hospital my life did a 360 yet again. All of a sudden the mother was no where around. The grandmother had her. This was a shocked. A disbelieve another mental set back. How are you supposed to hope for the best when all that is around you is the worst. Next thing I know I am driving an hour and half on moped to go see a little girl trying to salvage something that may not exist. A few months into this its so much. He doesn't know where to turn for support its like a wrecking ball has come. He needs to give up this custody battle because he can't even take care of himself how can he take care of another. He does. Its for her sake he keeps saying to himself. Reality is he is young and selfish. How do you go from not knowing anything to such an epiphany as that. He was being selfish. Not selfless. Its an act he has come to know well. He treats his life like a battering ram. Not a very smart way to live a life. Either way his life circled and circled. He lost one job due to traveling back and forth. His second job he just stopped going to because he wanted to have a life. How do you expect to be semi-normal with no life. Reality is he is not normal never well be. Things change, he again moves back to the west. He hates the west. He decides to go back because its the only option. He has burned too many bridges. All of them on fire. The fire still burning away. How to put them out? He can't.