A passage from my upcoming book. Its Untitled so far.

A small desert town lies in ruins. Flames coming pouring out of the windows of the First Baptist Church on Main St. The largest building in the center of town, the First Baptist Church was built when founding this town. It smells of methane gas. No one knows what happened. So much carnage it controlled the night, so much chaos. Dead bodies piled in the streets. A small mass of survivors stands at the edge of town. The women are crying, the babies are crying. The men stand their solemn faced. One speaks up above the sounds of the fire burning down their town.

“We need to get out of here and head for the nearest town” A younger male, barely drinking age. He has been trying to grow a beard for months to fit in with the other burly men, but he can barely grow stubble on his chin.

“Where do you suggest, we go. Huh? The closest town is 100 of miles.” One of the female counters him. She is an older lady. With white wisps in her hair, she carries a baby under her protective arms. She stares at the town with haunted eyes. Her family was one of the founding members. She turns to look at the young male. 

“What, John, you were on a roll! “ She speaks with heavy sarcasm.

“Well, Linda. What do you suggest? No one here can fight a 3 square mile fire! Can you Linda?” John spits back at her. He turns to face her with contempt in his eyes. Linda turns to look back at John with hatred in her eyes. 

Forrest Gump (Part 2 of 2)

http://www.speakinggump.com/wordpress/?m=201103(Source)

There are a few scenes that really stand out in my mind. The first would be after Forrest gets "bit". When Lt. Dan and Forrest are on the floor laying there, and Lt. Dan is screaming at Forrest for saving his life. Saying he was supposed to die, it was his destiny.

Google defines destiny as the events that will necessarily happen to a particular person or thing in the future. Hmm? I had to look up necassarily in this instance for context. It means inevitably. So, take out necassarily and insert inevitably. Lets redefine destiny, the events that will inevitably happen. That seems a little bit more concrete. That also explains Lt. Dan's thinking.

Forrest Gump (Man,myth, legend) finding inspiration from unlikely sources. Part 1 of 2

Scene-A man sits on a bench in Savannah, Georgia; waiting for a bus to show up. " Hello, my name's Forrest, Forrest Gump"* End Scene. I have been a fan of actor Tom Hanks for years. From coming of age movie " Big" to romantic comedies " Sleepless in Seattle".

Tom Hanks has been a staple in my household for years, 20 plus years in fact. This is not about Tom Hanks acting career. I would need a few weeks to write that. This is about his character Forrest Gump

Change its bound to happen.

I have been trying to learn to change the past and future behaviors to be the best person I can be. But I struggle daily. It is easier to sit back and do nothing than it is to reflex on yourself and take stock in your life and honestly say I fucked up here where do I unfuck it up next time. Its critical thinking that makes us worse for where. I have been watching YouTube videos, reading books, blogs, now I am doing hypnosis. Subjection through mental stimulus. With all these endeavors I am doing you would think I was crazy. Oh wait I am. But, I am trying to change my evil ways. 

I struggle with aniexty, when talking to people that I don't know. Its a problem. I have been trying to become more sociable to build a stronger support group, but its hard when you can't approach people. I would make a horrible serial killer. I have been told I am very charismatic. Its a fraud. I am a fraud. I fake that shit. I am so nervous and so overwhelmed that I am going to say the wrong thing that I tend to just blurt out everything. Plus I give off a I don't give a fuck approach but realitity is I do care. I care a whole deal. I have what most people call super empathy. Which means that I can feel the suffering and hurts of others very easily. It sucks. Just learning about myself alone is enough to cause depressive states of mind. Well that is enough rambling. I haven't been writing a great deal I am having what I would like to call an episode. 

Full plate, full of hope.

Man, my plate is full. But it is all good things. School, business, blogging, ghostwriting, phew. If you asked me about three months ago if I saw myself where I am today. I would tell you hell no. I would have probably been too choked up with emotion to really answer. Things have changed so dramatically that I feel my depression may be slipping by. I hope so. Today is gonna be a short post. Working hard and trying to get everything in order! I promise as things get better so will this blog! Thank you for bearing with me. 

Ali vs Foreman? (Better fighter or better prepared?)

This is both a personal and learning post.

I just got finished watching “Ali” with Will Smith. As I sat watching listening, I thought who was a better fighter, Ali or Foreman? Then it clicked it wasn’t who was better, but he (or she) that prepared better that was always going to win.

(Image source http://www.biography.com/people/muhammad-ali-9181165)

Ali clearly won the fight between him and Foreman, but why, how. Foreman was younger, stronger with knockout power and he knew where his strengths were. But Ali won! Ali studied and knew what Foreman was going to do.(Ali also had great corner men who know what to look for) Foreman was going to back Ali into the rope and just swing until he got that lucky punch in or wear him down. But Ali knew this, so he trained and trained what he would later dub the rope a dope where he would lean back on the ropes and allow Foreman to wear himself down and when the time was right to take advantage of his tried out state.

(Image source http://www.cyberboxingzone.com/boxing/george.htm)

So, as I realized this I was thinking to myself who do I act more like. Do I act like Foreman, just come in swinging and whatever lands I just stick to that end of it, or do I act like Ali and plan and prepare and make sure I know what I am getting into. I concluded that I act more like Foreman, but I am going to change that. I want to become a champion and I will fight to make it work. I have a long way to go. But I am going to take a few notes from Ali and train smart for the battles to come.

Happy New Year.

Well,
        Happy New Year everyone. I hope it treats you well. I am trying to figure out what this year will bring me in terms of success and stress. Its been a rough end of year for me last year. If you have been keeping up the blog you have seen that. I am still struggling with some things and other things seem to be getting slightly better.

I am hoping this year is better. Well I know it will be better because I plan on making it better. You have to take charge of your own life. I have a lot of goals and guidance set up for myself what are your plans for this year? I will be starting a real poetry blog that I will be giving access to and selling a mini-poetry book for 5$ for 20 poems. So if you like poetry maybe this will be something you want to get. I think I will offer something special like a one of a kind poem on an object or something. What do you guys think? Any ideas, thoughts or opinions would be amazing thank you! Well I wish everyone a Happy New Year and great success this year.